Princess Sassy Pants & Co.™

I looked everywhere that we are supposed to find happiness and fulfillment, leaving no stone unturned, and yet they both remained elusive. Where do you search when you’ve looked everywhere?

I had no idea what I was doing when I decided to look within; I just wanted even the tiniest moment of reprieve from the deep inner turmoil that was my “normal.”

The first time I got quiet, I imagined that I was climbing a gently sloping mountain and would meet a much older and wiser me. I imagined that, having already lived my life, she would have the answers I needed so desperately.

I met her on a grassy plateau. Her long gray braid cascaded down her shoulders as she sat in a chair weaving a basket. I sat down at her feet and placed my head on her lap. There was a very unfamiliar yet sublime sense of peace about her.

She gently stroked my head for a few minutes and then took my hand and led me to the edge of the plateau. To my amazement, I realized that I was no longer directing this experience.

She began asking me questions that, unbeknownst to me at the time, would become the foundation for my newly-born inner search.

There is a way of seeing that sees beyond all that changes–beyond all that we think of as “good” and “bad.” It is an awareness that must be experienced to be understood. In this awareness, there is always beauty, love, and a deep sense of peace. It is ALWAYS present. No. Matter. What.

The beautiful thing about it is that the brush, the key, is and always has been in my very own hand. I realized that nothing can keep it from me–no circumstance, person, condition, place, or thing. I can always choose to look past how things appear to be and see through this awareness instead.

We only have a reference point for this way of seeing once we actually experience it; I can’t describe it. It’s like describing the flavors of the most delectable meal to someone who has only eaten oatmeal their whole life.

I can tell you this: If this stirs something within you, get quiet, go within often, listen, and don’t give up until you find it. It’s there. It’s always within you.