“Why am I here?” I asked inwardly.
“You are here for a reason,” the inner Voice that had become so familiar to me responded, and I KNEW I was right where I needed to be.
I had been living in a deep spiritual state for quite some time when every door closed, and I had the choice between living on the street or staying with my dad.
Dad and I had a long history of hostility. He was all we had after mom passed, but he had a lot of demons and was an abusive alcoholic. I saw him through kinder and gentler eyes after I began having deep spiritual experiences, but I still didn’t want to live with him. God had other plans.
Over the next several months, dad and I baked together and laughed while I redecorated his house. One day as he stood in the living room doorway teasing me, I knew he wouldn’t be here much longer. A couple of months later, I was living at his hospital bedside. I read him letters I wrote to him late at night while he slept, sang softly to him (much to his dismay), and cared for him as he transitioned.
Even when the doctors said he was no longer responsive, I could still feel him communicating with me and felt a deep, inexplicable peace. People would enter the room and remark about the feeling in the room.
“What happened between you and dad?” my siblings would ask. What happened? What happened is that I SAW him. I saw through what he seemed to be to what he always was hiding behind a dark glass…and I adored him beyond words.
He communicated with me up until his last breath, and the next morning I awoke to his voice within me. It was him but so gentle and kind that I almost didn’t recognize him. “Thank you, my daughter, my friend, my spiritual sister. I didn’t understand the importance of what you are doing, but I do now. You helped me more than you know, and now I’m here to help you.”
We are ALWAYS right where we need to be. There aren’t any mistakes. Trust and ask for help to see the gifts right where you are today.
Princess Sassy Pants & Co.™ 
I’m so happy you found and made peace together with your dad.
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So beautiful!
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My what a precious story of how life can be if we stop, and trust the process of life and where we are today. Your story is so moving, eye opening, it is so uplifting and powerful.
My five year divorce battle with my spinning out of control ex just finalized in May 2022. In September 2021 I moved from NorCal to SoCal, now I find myself back in NorCal to stay and care for my daughter who’s healing from brain surgery, while her husband just deployed. My life has been on hold through this mentally painful divorce and still is. I had just left my daughters home when I moved in Sept after staying nine months at her home helping care for her. I’m by no means complaining I love my daughter with all my heart, we are very close. I had to accept that I’m not in charge of the situation of where I am today, I made the decision to come back and do this task on my own. I can only believe that my higher power God has a plan for me. I have had to let go, and let God. Just like with my divorce it was all in Gods hands, even though it was a ruff five years it’s over and I’m okay today. I was okay though the divorce too. I know my ex is a sick man, as I actually was too, when I was spinning in my own addiction of alcoholism I now have 8,52 years of sobriety by Gods amazing Grace. Princess Jane thank you for opening your heart and soul to us.
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Takes the cake my dear Princess
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Heartwarming words💝
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