There was a period in my life that was extremely dark; I can only describe it as a period I would have never thought one could walk through and live to tell about it. There wasn’t one area of my life that wasn’t getting battered by hurricane-force winds. All I could do was just hang on. I was in the proverbial dark night of the soul.
I lost my childhood home, and friends I had for years dropped out of my life for no apparent reason. My sister, who was my dearest friend, passed unexpectedly. In the wake of her passing, what was left of my family origin was completely shattered. I was partially paralyzed by a virus. I couldn’t care for myself, but there was nobody to care for me.
The work I had loved doing for years felt like walking in mud and fell away, leaving me with no income. I realized that the man I was in a relationship with for a few years was a true sociopath/narcissist, and was actively trying to make me feel insane.
These were a few of the delights of this period, but the hardest part was that I could no longer feel the inner Presence I had felt for years.
I would do my best every day to recognize that there was not one thing I could do about yesterday, but today I could ask, “What now? Where do I go from here?”
I began to notice that if there was something that made me laugh, even the tiniest bit, it felt like a little piece of a puzzle sliding into place; I could feel a little healing taking place. It was literally the only thing that felt healing, so I began to seek out anything that made me smile or brought the slightest bit of laughter.
This was when I created Princess Sassy Pants & Co. Making these little images made me smile, so I made more and began sharing them. Because it was literally the only thing that made me feel better, I began doing it all day, every day, and slowly, I began to see a light shining into that very dark place. Eventually, those slivers turned into huge beams of light that led me to a life I could have never imagined possible.
These transitions in life aren’t easy but they are made a lot harder if we cling to what is gone and thus don’t allow room for the new life that’s waiting to emerge.
These transitions in life aren’t easy but they are made a lot harder if we cling to what is gone and thus don’t allow room for the new life that’s waiting to emerge.
Princess Sassy Pants & Co.™ 
I so related to your homily today. Leaving a marriage with trauma, unpleasantness & an incompetent atty.😕 Also facing another legal issue related to the marriage my 2nd atty is not vested in. 😑
Thank you for Princess Sassy Pants & Prince Pucci. 💛 Your words of wisdom not only uplift but inspire me to do better for myself. 😊
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Princess, please seriously consider writing the story of your life, as I believe it would be incredibly helpful to SO many of us! ❤️
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Thank you for your beautiful photos you lift me up every day
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Thank you for sharing! I know this dark place and I’m not out and thriving like you appear to be. I come to your daily pics to smile. Thank you!
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Princess, Thank you for having the courage to share your story. I feel like I could have written this. I am in the midst of trying to heal from a debilitating illness brought on by trauma from years of narcissistic abuse by my husband. I find myself having lost everything as I bounce from family to family in an effort to find safety and sanity. Your posts give me hope that the beautiful person inside me will once again emerge and flourish. I yearn for her to come out. Please keep sending your wisdom into this broken world. We are in great need of the light you so willingly share.
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Hi Bettybird,
The old Bettybird will not return, for you have entered the chrysalis, and she is dissolving. Let her go. The great news is that you will emerge with wings that are more beautiful than anything you can imagine, and you will not miss that caterpillar self you left behind. You can’t go back to living on leaves; the more you try to, the more painful it will be.
I know it can be scary and that we try to cling to what we know. Believe me. And that’s okay, but as best you can each day, try to let her go, so the new life that’s trying to emerge has some room to grow. Rest a lot, but most importantly, if you don’t have a meditation practice, you might want to consider starting now. You will find a strength and light within you that will blow your little mind. Wink. You WILL find the sense of safety and sanity within yourself; it is truly just waiting for you to look for it there to find it.
Here’s the biggest thing, if you can grasp it: I practice a form of forgiveness that’s not like most understand forgiveness. The forgiveness I practice is based on the premise and fact that I have a light and strength within me that nothing and nobody can touch. Because of this, I don’t have to hold anyone or anything in condemnation and can release them from all expectations. I can sometimes do this very quickly, and sometimes I have to work at it for some time until I feel the full release, but every effort in this direction is worth more than anything in the world. This is the greatest healer I have ever discovered.
It’s not really forgiving persons out there; it’s more forgiving the idea that anything or anyone had the power to take anything from me, harm me, or even has the power to add anything to me. It must be experienced to be understood. You’ll be led if you’re even the tiniest bit open to this.
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Your Sassy ‘Wisdom’s’ bring a joy and light to so many others. I always turn to them and hope and love when I need it most. Thank you for getting all of us out of the valleys and onto the mountain.
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