The mountain air filled my lungs with each breath as I walked the upward, sloping path dotted with wildflowers. Directed in the quiet of meditation, I watched the scene unfold as I approached the plateau where I was to meet myself.
Tears had burned my face for months; there was a ceaseless sense of emptiness, loneliness, and a profound sense of despair. I had experienced many challenges, but nothing as all-encompassing as this darkness that pervaded my being; I had never felt so utterly disillusioned and lost. It seemed that everywhere I turned and everywhere that I once found even the slightest sense of solace in the past, I found a door slamming against my battered being instead.
“Why don’t you try looking within?” A friend suggested kindly, probably exhausted by my incessant moans. At first, I didn’t think this would offer any real solution, but I knew one thing was sure, I had tried everything I knew throughout my life thus far, and the many efforts had led me to where I was…to this emptiness. At least going inward was something that I had not yet attempted. “What do I have to lose?” I reasoned inwardly. (more…)
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