I really try to come to this with transparency and to be completely honest, the last thing I wanted to do today was to post anything…or do anything. Some things happened in the last couple of days that have left me feeling very confused, sad, and very broken hearted. I slept very little last night and woke feeling sick to my stomach.
I’ve experienced a lot of deep loss in my life and some things have happened that leave me feeling yet another loss. I don’t know if when you have a lot of loss, new losses or the threat of loss, dredges up all the pain from the other losses or not.
I always try to find the place of peace within that doesn’t fluctuate with circumstances and I know I’m not there right now. I went from feeling such a sense of hope and pure joy as we moved into our new house and worked hard to get settled in, and then some things happened unrelated to the house that has left me feeling like I don’t care about any of it. I know I have to go within but right now I just want to curl up into a ball and I would if I didn’t have so many people coming today to work on the house.
When all this started to unfold and my heart felt like it was breaking yesterday, I had been unpacking my office. I found a small framed picture of my sister who passed (Roxanne). I’ve wanted to get a really pretty and special frame for this picture and took the back off the frame in order to measure it. I forgot that I had put her scuba diving certification card in back of the picture. When I opened the frame I found her big smile staring back at me. I also forgot that the picture is the memory card from her services.
This is what I wrote for the back of the cards. I read it and knew she was trying to comfort me right now.
“How can meager words possibly describe the inexplicable beauty of our beloved and oh so precious sister Roxanne? Her laugh that would fill any room and every heart with joy cannot be found in them, nor can the light and love she so generously expressed in innumerable ways. But those of us who had the privilege of her touch upon our hearts and lives were immeasurably blessed by her. Let all the world bow for a moment in silent tribute to one whose ineffable beauty graced us for a time, as she is carried now on angel’s wings…”
Thanks for listening. I would greatly appreciate your prayers today.
Roxanne came to you when you needed her Hun, (today) and she will remain in your heart forever! ❤
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I am lifting you up in love and prayers today! May you have the strength and courage needed.
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Thank you so much for sharing such personal feelings. Your great love for your sister rings out, loud and clear. Like you, I have had lots of loss in my life. I lost a brother when I was seven, and my older sister when I was 30. I do think such loss rises to the surface when we, again, experience loss. The loss leaves its stamp on our hearts. So please be gentle and kind to yourself, and don’t push. Your devoted fans are encircling you with warmth and love.
And thank you for being honest. When you share your sadness with us, it allows us to acknowledge our own pain in a safe space and time. That is a gift that you give that touches our hearts.
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Thank you for sharing! You have my prayers ❤
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Blessings and hugs and may you have beautiful memories of your sister that will replace the sorrow.
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That was so beautiful what you said about your sister. Thank you. Love and light and a blessing of joyousness to overcome this. I feel your sister is very happy for you and can feel everything you are feeling. So please don’t stay sad for too long. I feel she really wants you to feel happy and especially loved.
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Sending prayers of comfort and peace God is with you and will never leave or forsake you.
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even in your sadness, you are so eloquent! Sending much love and prayers ❤
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Sending you huge hugs today, and praying for you, also ❤
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I lost my husband of 49 years last July. I cannot tell you how many times your posts reflect exactly how I am feeling on any given day. It is as if you know me. Thank you.
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Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I’m feeling exactly the same as you at the moment so it meant a lot to know I am in good company. I am dying of a progressive disease, and I have thought a lot about death. I became very dark and twisty for a long time but then I rallied and created a support network that now benefits many of those suffering from my disease. I still have my moments, especially this week. I am really sorry your house has a few issues, I went through that too. It does tarnish it, but only a little. At the moment this is just a house, I think finding your sisters pictures and those incredibly beautiful words means she is there with you to help you turn it into a home, and that as long as you are together, even in spirit, you are Home! Sending you hugs, prayers, and resilience for when you are ready to uncurl from your ball of despair. Thank you for your messages each day, they do mean you have to keep going!!! in spirit, yours Melissa xxxx
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What a beautiful tribute to your sister.
I personally like to believe that our loved ones are with us always even when we can’t see them as they reside in our hearts and are only a thought away. Having never lost a sibling I can only say that I am so deeply sorry for your loss.
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You bring so much light into the world everyday. Hoping some of that light can find its way back to you aling with big hugs. ❤️
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Now I’m sad… posted a reply, and, it’s not here… 😞
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Hello lovely lady, I find myself exactly where you are… Thank-you for your honesty. I don’t have any answers or solutions or positive words as I lie here on my sofa, cuddling a cushion and staring out into space. I know this too shall pass and at some point I’ll/we’ll see the Grace in it, whatever it is but for right now, some serious being in the moment and allowing ourselves to feel the pain seems to be the only possible experience. Much love to you! Tanya
On Wed, Mar 7, 2018 at 7:47 AM, Princess Sassy Pants & Co.™ wrote:
> The Princess posted: ” I really try to come to this with transparency and > to be completely honest, the last thing I wanted to do today was to post > anything…or do anything. Some things happened in the last couple of days > that have left me feeling very confused, sad, and very” >
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I look for your new post as a way of encouragement and I enjoy them all. I too am a very up beat positive person. I list my dad 2 weeks ago. It saddens my heart you’re sad too. Your post here is positive and meaningful. Prayers to you and may God comfort you as well with his love and mercy. Keep up the wonderful work with your princess sassy pants.
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Cast your cares upon Him for He cares about you. Trust that God is enough in this and every situation. You are His beloved and created in His image. He has equipped you to handle what you need to and rejoice in each victory. Thank you Jesus for her overcoming one more time. In your name amen. You are loved.
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Sometimes there are no words to describe feelings or say what is needed. Sometimes it is the energy or thoughts and love that hold us.
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Honey, I think Roxanne’s thin king of you and everything you have been going through lately, and she’s trying to let you know she’s there for you, she sounds like a beautiful hearted person that you miss a lot and she’s there for you even if she’s not here anymore! Talk to her and see if you don’t feel better Dear!
Many Blessings and Prayers for you! ❤ ❤ ❤
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Sending comfort and light to help you through this difficult time. Feel your sister’s love as she is with you. Better times are ahead xxx
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Sending thousands of prayers, love and hugs to you! ❤
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I am sending you a great big hug!
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Healing prayers are on their way! Loving memories come back to us when we need them and stay with us because of the love, fun, laughter and joy we have for that special person. Cherish those wonderful times and memories and keep on living your dream!
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May God give you a 2nd wind and know that he is protecting you and providing everything you need! He is your strength and counselor and best of all, comforter!
Godspeed! ❤️💝
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HUGS. We all understand and wish you a quick
“recovery” 🙏🏼💕
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Your sister and my brother. I completely know the feelings you are going through. You are in my heart, always, and my Angels will be there to wrap their wings around you and hold you.
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Our Heavenly Father knows the pain & hurt you’re going through. Trust in His ways & His plans for you. There’s no one who loves you more than God, He’s got you in the palm of His hands & He’ll draw you close to His loving heart.
Prayers to comfort & sustain you.
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I’m so sorry Princess Sassy I’m sending huge sparkly hugs and strength prayers for you right now!
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May all the support from here…bring you some comfort and strength you need right now. I totally understand what your saying…..from losing parents….my job…some days my sanity. I remember something you wrote some time ago….Go inward, get quiet, listen and trust. We trust that even though the mountain ahead of us looks insurmountable, you are not alone. You will in days ahead be ok……hugs and blessings to you….
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What an incredibly special woman you are! You bring light and love to so many people through your work and posts. We (your collective and humble followers) are truly blessed by you. You are such a source of joy in my life! While I do not know all that may be going on in your life, I do know that as a fellow human being, you are entitled to be just that – HUMAN with all of the emotions, imperfections, possibilities and amazingness that comes with it. Whatever may be happening, know you are among people who care. Prayers of peace, comfort and healing offered in your name today. ❤️
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From my previous post….I had a typo – I pray it was a word for you 😘
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Thank you for sharing your heart with us. I pray God will comfort you and fill you with peace and fill you with hope and cheer. I saw this twice and thought it may be a work for you. 💗
“But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.”
Isaiah 40:31 NLT
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Prayers coming your way to stay strong this too will pass. God Bles you!!
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Sending good thoughts your way, and prayers that your way will have light. Sometimes when we have so many exciting things coming together in our life, we forget that we are only human and it can be a crazy road. Take a walk spend some much needed time resting, and remember that your faith and love will always take you where you need to be.
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Joining the many, many folks who are sending you loving thoughts and hugs.
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Praying for you, DearHeart! Look up “brokenhearted” in biblegateway.com and read, and cry, as needed. I do. xoxo
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Hugs and prayers. Remember your strength.
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During such difficult times in our lives, we are never sure of where to turn! For me; looking to God for my strengthhas gotten me through the rough spots, and asking friends and family to keep us lifted up in prayer! Blessings and love from my home to yours! Lifting you up to the Lord and asking for a Spiritual renewal and refilling of your mind, body, and Spirit! May Jesus hold you in His arms! So sorry for your loss! ❤
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Prayers of peace to help you get through your sorrow. ❤
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So very sorry to hear and feel your heartache. We all have felt this desperate, or will, ache so very deep that nothing will fill that empty spot. But never forget that God promises us that we will be together FOREVER. No more losses or separation, Thank You Heavenly Father for Your Words of Comforter, even when we can’t feel them when we are hurting so badly. God Bless You Especially today….and give you Peace.
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Your posts have helped me through many days. Please know I am sending comforting thoughts and prayers your way!
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Thoughts and prayers I’m sending to you!! So very sorry for your loss. Your heart is heavy now but your sister is always with you in spirit and your memories of her. Hold on tight as I pray the angels will put their wings around you and comfort you. One step at a time one moment at a time one day at a time!!
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May God comfort you always,
Sweet Princess ❤️
And may prayers and beautiful
memories of the time
with your sister
sustain you.
Abundant Blessings !
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Sending love and positive thoughts your way.
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Lifting you in love and prayers always.
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I too have lost my precious baby sister, my only sibling & I know how badly your heart hurts! Many prayers for you! You know she’s right there with you, always!
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Prayers always for you!!
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Sending love to you on butterfly wings.
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I pray that God’s Peace and Comfort will surround your heart and soul and you will find your center of joy once again.
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I love your posts…. you are always there for everyone! Today I hope everyone is there for you.
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Prayers flowing…when I feel so sad and broken hearted, the thought comes to my mind ~ they have seen the face of Jesus 🙏🏻
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Dear Heavenly Father, I pray your comfort and love would bring a peace and emotional mercy to our Princess that can only come from you. Please help her find those moments and ways in which she can lay her sorrow upon your throne of grace and surround her with people who can love away her sadness. In Jesus name, Amen🙏
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Your posts mean the world to me, they have gotten me through countless good time and bad. I remember reading one of your posts right before I went into my first radiation and I just felt so much girl power and will to keep pushing. I print several of your posts and have them taped into my journal. You are such an inspiration and hopefully reading our posts of encouragement will help you push through the day. Thinking of you, sending prayers and lots of love……go out there and slay it.
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OMG We are feeling the same. We lost my beautiful sister in law Cathy, on February 15. We know she’s in a better place. Thank God we’re down in Florida on vacation. My husband is feeling better. I often repost yours and people love them. God Bless you Teresa
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With all the happiness you bring to me I send you my prayers
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Thank you for sharing … it is as if your messages come in at the right time … giving comfort, hope, joy, inspiration and today again … this kind advise… I wish your heart may be filled with warmth, love, beautiful memories, compassion. I too, lost a good friend 3 weeks ago now and it is so difficult to deal with the loss, I search the connection now through nature, the sky, the sun, the moon… I feel we are all connected to each other here.
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yesterday the 6th – numerological lesson – learn a lesson of Love, Balance and Understanding
Today the 7th – numerological lesson – learn a lesson of Wisdom through analysis and understanding…..a very soul searching introspective day ahead….
J.
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Sending hugs, prayers and lots of love. Your daily drawings and messages have kept me going in the bad times and in the good. I am so grateful to have originally met you through the Martha Beck group. Giving back to you with love and prayers throughout the day is a small thing do after all you have done for me through your art. Love you so much. Linda
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May you feel our Heavenly Fathers peace in your heart & soul today & always.
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How wonderful that your sister reached out to you today. It does make us so sad for the loss and what could have been. Try to stay positive. It helps me so much to do this. Thinking of you. 🦋❤️
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i don’t usually write, but you have been there for everyone for years now. I know you have brightened our days with your posts. thank you so much. Someday we will be together again with our loved ones. I do wish you peace joy and happiness always.
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You not only have my prayers but also a virtual hug and healing energy being sent your way. Take time, when you can to be kind to yourself. ❤️
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Sending you hugs today as there are no words that can convey the heart’s sorrow you feel for your beloved sister. Know there are those of us who care. ❤️
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Some days are just hard to deal with and one cannot expect to feel happiness all of the time. When I am like this, I try to thank God for the time I had with my lost ones and know they are in my heart. God is always with you, especially in times of need. He knows when you need that extra love and maybe the message about your sister was His inspiration to let you know how precious the love between you is. Be blessed today.
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I know and feel your pain, my sister passed away 4 years ago and today is her birthday. I still wait for a call or mail from her.
Prayers to you!
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I am so sorry for the loss of your Sister! I am guessing from your post this morning that it has been a little while since see passed, but it seems like it doesn’t get easier to live without someone. But as you said in your memory cards, she is carried now on Angel’s wings, and you will see her again when you also go to live in God’s home. Know that you bring a sense of peace with each post you do, and I share almost every one you create. ❤
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Sending you Love! I just sent my dear sister in law a reminder that God’s Mercies are new EVERY morning! I’ll send that to you today, as well. Nobody can comfort as God can. I pray his angels surround you and lift you up today! ❤
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Sending comforting prayers! ❤
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Sending you love and healing thoughts.
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i know the feeling i now view that as a “message” she is always with you she always knows what’s going on and in this case i think roxanne was sending you the love she feels for you Her face shining up brought tears but think for a moment she came to visit and she’s here with you always just look for the signs and be so grateful that you still get them
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May Gods peace surround you as we lift you up in prayer. Loosing someone is always so difficult. I know…. but fill you heart so full of memories that love overflows and push out the sadness you are feeling. Grief knows no boundaries… God bless you with all the joy you bring to each of us. Hugs and love to you.
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Prayers and hugs for you today!!
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Prayers for you and hugs of peace.
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Sending thoughts and prayers that your spirit is renewed.
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Thank you for your profound words. It seems many our struggling with sorrow currently. As we look above to our FATHER, knowing that He will take care of us in the very time of trouble.
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